It has been so long since the last time I updated this blog. Feel like writing in English tonight. So, happy reading my nightly thoughts. My mind at this very moment, is thinking about how times do change things.
As some of you may know, I have been married for more than 6 years! Blogging and Facebooking has really been in my life this long. Yes, remember how I met him? Online, guys. Omg! All the turbulences, accidents, incidents, unexpected events, hurtful words, painful heart breaks, buckets of tears, days and nights of crying, it is a wonder, how my partner and I are still going on strong. It is magical. Not fairytale kind of magic, but it is.
Times do change things. There are so many things that I have never thought I would be, I am now. I never thought I would not have even a pair of jeans. I never thought I would be kind of obsessed with doing the dishes. I never thought food stuff arranged not showing their brand names in the fridge would bother me. I never thought I am capable of having 2 sons. I never thought I can do so many things, but I actually can. I never thought I would be so many things, now I am. How 'adopt and adapt' finally becomes crucial in our life.
When I was younger, I told people here and there about my feelings, my heart. My naive self thought it might solve the problems. My friends might help. Deep inside, I wish for backups. I wish for a knight in shining armour to swing his sword and vanish my problems. I wish I can just stand behind him or her, while he or she is settling the problems for me, BUT TRUST ME. That will NEVER be the case. In fact, it might worsen things up. We might end up embarrass ourselves. Unknowingly, there might be people who are laughing at your back. Your knight in shining armour, is the one you are conflicting with. And you are his.
How? Go figure. Perhaps, we forget good times also happen. When he proposed. When he gives you two Panadol tablets and that sticky thing to stick to your temple when you get headache. When he cooks for you when you say you are hungry. When he buys you gifts. When he takes care of your children for you to rest and sleep. When he massages your sore feet. When he drives so far to take you for your dream vacation. Remember? For sure. There are more good times when compared to bad ones. It is just that we are always reminded of the bad things. Yes, our brain, our mind is tricky like that.
Now, I know I've changed. Why? Coz I know, some things, just don't happen the way we expect, the way we want, the way we hope, not even the way we intend them to happen. In my case, I always expect people listening to me whining again and again, to offer help, but no, no favour can be offered when the problems are inside our house, are between two loving souls who are not seeing eye to eye at that moment. Only. Heartbreaks, pains, will dissolve their way. You two, just keep holding hands, never let go. Be kind. Give time. You and your partner are still adjusting having each other in the same room. It will never be easy, but for sure, YOU TWO CAN do it.
Only remember, times do change things. Bad times, will go. Good times, are coming. Work for them. Pray for them. Tawakkal to Allah. You two have problems. You two solve them. Apparently, it takes two to tango. Cooperate because you are now partners for life. You are now parents to your children. Literally NOBODY else, will help, but You.
